Random Dinner and Loneliness

This contains no recipes – well, maybe I’ll put what I had for dinner tonight.
OK – here’s dinner: 1/2 cup vanilla yogurt, 3 tsp pom arils, 4 pecans – all mixed together; plate of baby spinach with ketchup as my dressing; 1/2 kroger breadkfast muesli bread with honey peanut butter. Yes, I don’t always cook gourmet things.
I come to a dividing line. I’m trying to think through this – so if any of you care to respond, I welcome the conversation.
Dinner is meant to be shared. Lunch – give or take (most of us work) – we can eat in the rush of everything. But, I long for the day that I have people to eat dinner with. Yes, the loud crunching (remind me not to make anything that makes noise), the slurping of soup (remind me not to make soup), or the complaining of “I don’t like ________” (reminder: you can’t please everyone all the time, as my Dad used to say). Dinner…I actually enjoyed Thanksgiving meal because we all sat around the table, people enjoyed what I cooked, people were talking, there was conversation. Not so much in my apt. Some days it is very nice to come home to the quiet. Some days – like today – I wish I cooked a nice healthy meal and actually sat down to the table (instead of the chair in my living room), carried on a conversation about “how was your day, honey” or “what did you learn in school”.
Dinner and loneliness. I’ve read many articles through the years that even if you live by yourself, you need to fix a meal, sit down at the table with the table set. I sometimes do that – most of the time I don’t. “Maple Street Memories” by the Statler Brothers is my conversation piece tonight (and one of my favorite songs, I rememember singing it in the car when I was younger).
I can see how the elderly lose their appetite – they don’t want to eat by themselves. I wish I had that problem – I eat. But, sometimes it is just more interesting when you eat with others.
I like discussing the food with others, I like having a warm body in the house along with me.
And I pair this with the fact that I love living by myself.
Anyway, just thought I would share.
“She’s got a hundred dollar wallet made of caribou” – quoatable words by David Wilcox as I listen to “Daddy’s Money”, staring at my empty black and red bowls, knowing that I have to do Bob’s Biggest Loser Boot Camp video before going to small group tonight – in the cold.


About kimddavidson

I am bought with the blood of Christ and being graced every day to know Him more. I am a writer. Love to read, run, hang out, watch movies, cook, bake, work hard/play harder. God is so abundantly good to me.
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